When Words Fail...

I've been trying to post a blog for about two weeks now, and each time I'm at a loss for words. Weird huh? The chatter box unable to express what she wants to say.
This post is one of those sentimental ones that I warned about in my first post hehe. I've got so many things to say and yet I can't find the right way to say them, so I'm going to use some lyrics to help me...

"Leave it alone, don't analyze
'Cause love can be your lullaby
But love can be your hurricane too
And love can take your breath away
But love can leave you lonely and blue
Oh, what's a heart to do?
Oh, what's a heart to do?

Why be afraid
No reason to hide
Take the chance
Put it all on the line
Draw in a deep breath and throw open the door
'Cause that's what a heart is beating for
Yeah, that's what a heart is beating for
Beating for, beating for..."
-- Chris Rice

I've been hearing voices
Telling me that I could
Never be what I wanna be
They’re binding me with lies
Haunting me at night
And say, there’s nothing to believe
Somewhere in the quietness
When I’m overcome with loneliness
I hear You call my name
Like a father,
You are near
As I listen,
I can hear You say

You are a child of Mine
Born of My own design
And you bear the heart of life
No matter where you go
Oh, you will always know
You have been made free in Christ
You are a child of Mine..."
--Mark Schultz

"...Under a lavender moon
So many thoughts consume me
Who dimmed that glowing light
That once burned so bright in me
Is this a radical phase
A problematical age
That keeps me running
From all that I used to be?

Is there a way to return
Is there a way to unlearn
That carnal knowledge
That's chipping away at my soul
I've been gone too long
Will I ever find my way home?"
--Michael W. Smith

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear,
I will be here.
If in the dark we lose sight of love,
Hold my hand and have no fear,
‘Cause I will be here.

I will be here when you feel like being quiet;
When you need to speak your mind,
I will listen.
And I will be here when the laughter turns to crying;
Through the winning, losing, and trying, we’ll be together,
‘Cause I will be here..."
--Steven Curtis Chapman

It's been a hard year
But I'm climbing out of the rubble
These lessons are hard
Healing changes are subtle B

But every day it's Less like tearing, more like building
Less like captive, more like willing
Less like breakdown, more like surrender
Less like haunting, more like remember

And I feel you here
And you're picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars and more like Character..."
--Sara Groves

Those are only a sampling of things that have been tumbling around in my head. To say I'm confused would be putting it lightly. To say that I'm in a bit of a struggle would undermine the battle raging...
I know part of what's going on, and let me say...I've always enjoyed a challenge...so, I suppose the only thing I can do is face the wind and fight my way through to the other side!

"On Jordan's stormy banks I stand
And cast a wistful eye
To Canaan's fair and happy land
Where my possessions lie.

I am bound
For the Promised Land."

"Oh to grace how great a debtor
Daily I'm constrained to be.
Let thy grace now like fetter
Bind my wandering heart to Thee
Prone to wander Lord I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love.
Here's my heart O take and seal it,
Seal it for They court's above."

This is the great adventure!