Saturday, April 26, 2008

"I'm gonna get out of the car and drop you like third period french!"

I'm officially DOOOONNNNEEE with Sophomore year! *bounces around*
Whew, I can't believe it's finally over. Now I just have to wait in anticipation for my profs to put my grades online so I can see how I did. I'm actually kinda nervous about one class in particular, but as for the rest of them, I honestly don't know. *gulp* I'm heading home tomorrow afternoon, and I'm so ready to get back!

Summer is almost here...and I hope to get several larger projects under way...we'll see how that goes.

So yeah, I watched Ocean's 11 last night, and my blog title is one of my favorite lines. Actually, that movie in general is full of amazing dialogue, and the chemistry between the cast is absolutely wonderful. It's definitely in my top favorite movies of all time list. It's one of those movies I can usually watch at any point and time, French Kiss being another one...You've Got Mail...Transformers, National Treasure...and Emperor's New Groove are among others that also have that "watch any time" quality for me.

I find it very interesting to know what people's favorite movies reveals so much about the person, both as an individual and as part of our current culture. What's even more fun is when you find someone whose favorite movie is also yours and the two of you can spend an obscene amount of time talking about it and getting strange looks from those around you. Ah...good times.
It's also fascinating to see what kinds of people tend to flock together to watch movies. Most everyone has that one person or small group of people with whom they LOVE to watch things. You've got your talkers, your "be quiet after credits or die" crowd...the "if we've seen it before then sure we'll talk" group, and the ever popular "your popcorn crunching is ruining the mood" person who wants solitude but ventures into a packed theater and expects everyone to have a sort of reverence for whatever movie is about to be watched.

I, myself, tend to drift between the general 'talker' and the talk if you've seen the movie before depending on who I am with at the time. I can be quiet...but for some reason, I talk to movies...don't ask me both amuses and frightens my roommate at times. I've come to accept that as a personality quirk in myself, and hopefully I won't marry the "be quiet or die" guys because that would make the theater scenes in You've Got Mail and How to Lose A Guy In 10 Days look like a peaceful afternoon in a hammock. I can just see myself sitting there with tape over my mouth or him sitting there with headphones plugged into the TV while I watch him in irritation.
Wow can I ramble...

Anyway, I would do something fun like ask you to list your favorite movie or what type of "movie person" you are, but I don't think anyone reads this, so I shall just end here. :-)

Monday, April 14, 2008

Searing Love

I cried out when Your touch ripped open the wounds
Surrounding my heart.
I lay there my hurt exposed
Desperate to numb myself again

You spoke words of peace to my shattered world
But in my misery they only succeeded to tear me apart
I did not realize my agony was Yours

I could not feel the tears You wept
As You drug the claws from my soul
I fought You every moment I could
But You never left my side

When I tried to run
I fell among thorns
I felt the sting as I hit the ground
Silently screaming
I longed to suffocate in my self pity

Oh the pain of searing love
The burning fire of redemption
I never had a will to see
The piercing knife of refinement

I could only see my lost desire
I cut myself from You again
And built a foundation worthless as clay

You charged in and struck it down
I felt myself falling
Wrapping my arms around my body
Longing for this to end, I cried out to You…

I was not lost to the dark
You caught me in Your arms
And I finally opened my heart

Oh the pain of searing love
You tear away my idols
Your touch brings healing
To my blood stained soul
But the scars haven’t faded

Alysha -- 2008

Friday, April 11, 2008

The Winds of Change...

...And I'm still alive!

These past couple of weeks have been absolutely insane. I've been doing tests and papers plus going through Tech Week for One Acts up here at school. Whew...

Opening night for the show was last night, however; and it went very well for an opening. The audience was small but very responsive and supportive so that was encouraging. I can't wait to get back out there again for the final three performances.

I've also been doing a great deal of pondering lately. I've said that God has been doing some stuff in my life...and that's been good, hard but definitely needed. He's drawing my heart back to Him and I'm so thankful for that. He's also helped me to loosen up quite a bit about certain issues. It's still hard, and I'm still having some trouble about letting Him handle things, but it's getting better. As the song says:
"I'm not who I was when I took my first step...I'll walk through the fire if you want me to."

On a different note:
My SIP (Senior Integration Project) has been APPROVED! Now you might be thinking "senior? But you're not even out of sophomore year, isn't that a bit early?" I'm planning on doing a joint SIP with one of my friends who is a music major up here, and my idea involves me writing an adaptation for the stage...and those of you who know me and my writing habits...know that I have to start this early if it's going to be finished in time without causing me undue amounts of stress. I'm really excited about it though, and I'm looking forward to working on it this summer.

Hmm... speaking of summer...less than three weeks and I'll be home! I can't believe this semester is almost over...and that I'll be a junior in's pretty crazy...but in a good way.

So I'm going to do something new this time, and I'm not sure if I'll keep doing it...because I'm not really sure anyone reads this...but I'm going to recommend some things to you:

Movie of the week:
Dan in Real Life - Comedy/Drama starring Steve Carell. It's a great story with a fantastic cast.

Musician(s): Chris Rice, and Plumb. Both wonderfully talented on the lyric aspect of things.

Well I think that's about all for now...